I Don’t Need to Fit Into the Box

When I was younger people of authority often were the biggest bullies I encountered. Sure the kids were mean but they were immature, irrational, and had little power of me, so I didn’t care what they thought.

At home the adults in my life were mostly supportive of my eccentric ways and unique brilliance. Even my mother, who I frustrated to no end with my constant asking of “why”, appreciated my intelligence.

I had the hardest time with my teachers. Blinded by my difference, unable to spot the intellect behind my “defiance” and “inattention”, they assumed I was “lazy”, “stubborn”, or “slow”.

Even as a child, I have always had my own way of doing things. My grandparents helped me to grow my love of art, books, and all things strange. They commented on how “funny” I was from time to time but never tried to put out my fire.

Being “socially acceptable” is something that I have always struggled with. In my natural state, I am weird and goofy. Being silly and laughing, even at “inappropriate” moments is something that I do, although being an adult calls for me to put a cap on silly behaviors from time to time.

If I could live in any fictional place, I would fly away to Never Land, nurturing the part of me that will never grow up.

I don’t want to fit into a neat little box called “normal”. I am an inigma, a wise old soul with a young and naive heart. I see the world through rose colored glasses (literally and figuratively).

Life is supposed to be fun, and living in a box of someone else’s construction seems like a fate worse than death.


12 thoughts on “I Don’t Need to Fit Into the Box”

  1. This is so perceptive, and self-aware too. I’ve just posted on people’s attitudes and prejudices about what is termed disability. Tho’ not the case here, clearly, my argument is basically it’s not the case anywhere. Your post resonates very strongly with me. Thank you.

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  2. I can relate to the adult bullies of your childhood. My teachers were some of the worst culprits. It was great you had the support of your family. My dad wasn’t supportive, which was weird because he was the exact same way as a child. It was hard. I think it’s awesome that you are happy with who you are and don’t want to conform to the society’s view of how people should be. Sounds like you are an incredible person that definitely doesn’t need to change to please anyone.

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  3. I didn’t get bullied much as a child after turning 9(even then it was minor stuff from other children). About 2 years after that I started applying myself more in school b/c I found it more interesting. I’m still pretty closed off when it comes to interacting face to face and my somewhat warped view of people doesn’t help. It’s not something I can change despite being aware of it.

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