Every time I publish a blog about being tough and pushing yourself, there are always comments complaining that I am not paying enough attention to self care.
Yes it is possible to practice self care while pushing yourself. I do it every single day.
In the morning, when my sensory issues bother me the most, it is hard for me to get out of bed but I PUSH myself to do it anyway because I know the pain is only temporary. I try to brush my teeth, because doing so is good for me, but if the sensation is too much to handle on any given day I will stop.
I like to touch my limits, but I am very careful to be respectful of them. Pushing too far is not helpful to anyone.
Some things just suck too much to push through, like last night. I awoke to a spinning room and gargling stomach just after two am. Finally, after four hours of vomiting, I am able to fall asleep.
When I wake up at eight I feel much better but my stomach is still tender and my body weak. I’d been looking forward to going out to lunch with my friend, but I texted her to reschedule this morning. Today I need to rest and take care of myself. I also need to work (thank goodness I work from home).
Once again pushing myself while being respectful to what my limits are at this moment. I can handle working from home under a pile of blankets right now, but would not be able to handle doing anything in public.
Pushing. Pulling. Finding the right balance and never giving up.