Looking Back

Looking back on when I started this blog. Reflecting on the discovery of my Autism and the negative things that were all over the Internet.


I was worn down and depressed. Eventually, after the shock from all the negativity wore off, I began to look for positive people and articles.


Almost everything positive was coming from Aspies. Watching my positive peers helped me to shake off my darkness, but finding all of their videos had been difficult. Search engines seems to prefer big organizations over small blogs.


It should be easier for people looking online to find this first hand information – straight from the Aspie’s mouth.


We know what we are talking about. 😉


I started to collect posts that inspired me and began to look for new inspiring Autistics online.


Writing out my feelings helps me to put them into words.


It’s funny, despite being told that I am a fairly decent writer, I do not think in words in a very typical sense. Really I am a more visual thinker.


I can type out words if left alone to think, but having another person around can send my words flying out the window. Typing is therapy. Speaking is work.


This therapy saved me as I collected videos and articles that I wished I would have seen early in my Autism journey.


I wanted to create a life preserver. If you happen to be lucky enough to find me, you will also find the biggest collection of links to other amazing Autistic people online.


Nobody should drown in negative information. I hope that you use this site as a lighthouse in the dark. Shining the paths to many amazing voices.


With love,



24 thoughts on “Looking Back”

  1. Anna, I am a fan of your blog. You say things like you mean them and in the world of invisible illnesses (which Aspergers and Autism are a part of) that is how we all have to be. Your battle with words seems a lot like mine with sound. I actually wrote about it in today’s post. Sounds can actually cause me physical pain. If I can manage my pain properly and not have to juggle too many other things at once with my mind then even the loudest or worst sound won’t affect me. But, if I am trying to listen to someone, think hard about something, remember, etc., even the smallest sound can cause debilitating pain. Take care and I look forward to more posts from you.

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    1. Thank you so much for sharing your own experience! I only have sound problems when I am close to overload. However I have Synestesia where I feel sounds in my body. Sometimes it can feel like the room is spinning if there is too much sound. That can be a pain.

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  2. One thing I have noticed is that there appear to be far more women on the Autistic Spectrum that write online about these things than male. I talk about it a bit, but not much. I don’t like putting my feelings online so when I’m feeling very low I just go quiet. Women however, have better verbal skills than men and it is the females on the Spectrum that tend to be our voice. I very much appreciate what you, and other women like you, do for us all.

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    1. I noticed the same. Women speak very clear and it’s all explained so well also for me that i’m not on the spectrum. But i have friends on spectrum and i like to understand better even if i know every one is just one person different!

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    2. Thank you so much. It is funny because in person I don’t like to share my feelings. I have a hard time with verbalizing my feelings out loud. I am a bit of a tom boy, actually. Another reason I blog anonymously because I don’t really want to talk about my feelings with people face to face. Lol.

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  3. My best fried is an Aspie, my son is an Aspie and, it seems likely that, my husband is one too. I ❤️ your blog. I enjoy reading it and wish some of the things you say are heard by more people. Here’s to neurodiversity!

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  4. “Anna,”

    We seem to be on opposite ends of the spectrum, so to speak. I almost became giddy when I discovered my autism! For one thing, I was amazed there was a single condition that included my seemingly random collection of symptoms (most of them, anyway; I still don’t know why I write left-handed but throw right-handed). But more than that, I felt like a guy struggling to get his PC to work his whole life with no success, who one day finds out his PC had been a Mac all along. I’m not saying my life is all peaches and cherry blossoms (yet), but knowing which “programs” just aren’t compatible with my “operating system” has made my world 1000% more habitable.

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    1. Thank you so much for sharing your own experience. I think I went through a few phases as I accepted my Autism diagnosis. Some of my commodities are a bit intense so for me getting a diagnosis just confirmed that these things really are gong to be with me my entire life. I’m not sure I could hold a job if I had to go into work every day because of all the “call-ins” for being “sick”.


  5. I know exactly what you mean when you say “Typing is therapy. Speaking is work.” I have mitochondrial disease and it messes up my ability to think of words sometimes. Sometimes when I am talking I can’t remember simple words like ‘refrigerator’ right in the middle of a sentence. I just stop and stare and can’t think for the life of me what the big thing that keeps my good cold is called. Sometimes it is literally to exhausting for me to talk because mitochondrial disease causes severe fatigue. People think I’m ignoring them when in reality I just don’t have the strength to carry on a conversation. I feel like I can write my thoughts down so much easier. The words come to me when I write so much better than when I talk. It’s like I’m not under so much pressure to think of the words on the spot. I wish people would be more tolerant and accepting of alternative communication types. It seems as if anyone who doesn’t follow the social norm of making perfect eye contact and immediately responding in conversations is being rude or disrespectful.

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      1. Keep up the good work. It will take outspoken members of the invisible disability community to make the changes we need to see. We are all in this fight together no matter what battle we are facing individually.

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