Oops I’ve lost another friend
I thought that we were close
But you’ve got needs
that I can’t fill
You want more from me than I can give
I leave you feeling empty
You tell me friends hang out more
When my social anxiety gets the best of me
and I would cancel
at first you calmed to understand
Eventually you got tired of waiting
telling me you wanted more
I know now
and it breaks my heart
that I must let you go
Goodbye my friend of many years
My friend who cannot understand
I hate to see you go
and will miss you when you’re gone
but your no good for me
when you hurt me so
your words cut deep
we cannot repair
I’m afraid you’ve got to go
A poem about losing friends.
Being Autistic has made it more difficult for me to make friends. I don’t bond with everyone but deeply care about the friends I have. Loosing a friendship is like burying a friend.
It is a great and painful loss but if the relationship is not mutually beneficial than I can see no point.
I have Social Anxiety Disorder – sometimes I cancel plans but it doesn’t mean I did not want to hang out. My fiends feel unwanted and one by one most of them have drifted away.
People don’t understand and I can’t blame them for that – doesn’t mean it does not sting whenever it happens.