I have a hard time making connections with people through face to face interactions. Something inside me doesn’t allow me to bond to people partially – I have close friends (very few), colleagues (people who think they know me), and strangers.
There are no shades of grey with me. Things are black and white most of the time.
I am friendly with everyone but unless you earn your way into my inner circle I will keep you at a distance. Most people have lost interest in any type of relationship by the time I’ve come to my decision about weather someone is trustworthy or not.
Being unable to read body language and faces puts me at a disadvantage in social situations and makes it harder for me to get a feel for people. I’m painfully aware of this disability and it has made me overly cautious, because people have taken advantage of my naivety in the past.
Face to face interactions with people can be very draining for me, even when in the company of good friends. Too many people in one room can be disorienting. I can’t function in an overly busy environment. It’s hard to filter out all the voices.
I don’t care for alcohol and parties with bumping bass music and throbbing lights leave me wanting to run like a rodent in the night.
These are the things my peers bond over and enjoy – these are the things I want to avoid.
I don’t want to rock and roll all night or party every day.