My Meltdown – A Poem – Guest Blog

This poem comes from a long term reader, fellow blogger, and dear friend. I am honored to share with you a work by the one and only Allison M. Kramer of the Through 1 Filter  blog.

Thank you for sharing such an intimate moment. People need to understand meltdowns. These conversations are important.

 

My meltdown is

Echoed in my screaming
Adrenaline is racing like napalm through my veins
Moro reflex punching my gut over and over
Reliving the sensory overload on a loop

I’m drowning without being in water
and I have to go to bed for 2 days

Sometimes it brings red and blue flashing lights on a squad car 
Handcuffs chewing into my wrists
Lots of shouting and grabbing
Strapped to a backboard while my skin turns purple and black

Locked up, drugged up
Being punished for something I cannot control
It isn’t a conscience choice I’ve made
To disrupt my life or yours

It so happened that
A dog was barking-
A child was screaming-
Someone set off a firecracker-
And I couldn’t process the information fast enough
To remain in control of my executive functioning

The threat of sensory overload
hangs pregnant, like a cumulonimbus cloud

I need a safe place and safe people- now and until I die
To successfully process what life heaps upon me

Will you help me to make this a reality? I cannot do it alone, behind a computer detached from any notion of community. I don’t want my life story to end in a jail cell, nursing home or alley. 

 

Allison M. Kramer
Author:Through 1 Filter

 

 

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20 thoughts on “My Meltdown – A Poem – Guest Blog”

  1. It feels weird to click “like” for this post. I guess that what I like that it is being shared with such clear articulation that others, like me, might learn to understand that bit better. I don’t like that it has to be written, that people suffer.

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  2. Anne, your friends poem and your blogs have opened up a whole new world to me and providing education to a non-autistic person of the challenges you face. Hugs and love to you both as you confront day to day issues.

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  3. Thank you, Anna, and readers/commenters for your support! This poem is a composite of my meltdown experiences since age 16. I hope and pray there will be more life options for those who are severely limited by autism. Prayer is powerful. Thanks again to everyone!

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