One of the things I do to entertain myself, is digital art – trying to capture the essence of my experience. It’s mostly for fun… I used to draw and sketch people, at least from a distance, and I’m not that terrible – but I never got good enough to really express how it feels to be autistic.
These images capture some of it: feeling like you’re wrapped in duct tape, or wearing your thoughts like fragile glass ornaments. Feeling encumbered and constricted; surrounded and oppressed. Sometimes though, the creativity rises like a waking dream; sometimes I feel like a celebrity – vibrant and dizzying.
Sometimes my thoughts are a house of cards or a murder board… clues and associations. Putting them all away, cleaning up my toys, leaving them behind – that’s something I can’t do.
PS – feel free to share these if you like them, or even use them for your profile pics. I think they’re pretty cool. Someday I’d love to have a gallery and print them onto huge canvases where they belong. Or perhaps I’ll figure out how to get them printed onto iphone cases or something, but to me these feel like art that should be seen, expressive and unique and personal.
